Se Eu Morresse Hoje

This tape is an abyss between me and the blessing
It's like learning to walk, but without ground
And the status of this tape is advanced
And I'm tired of being tired
I saw things that you would run if you saw
I don't think I'll die of old age
They would lock the doors if you

Asking how often dead people see me
Is it a sea of people? Nothing, it's waves
Sun, I've never seen such a long dawn
Thinking about everything I brought to life
It's tearing me away, turning me into a suicide
Where is my smile? Where are you? Yeah, who stole it?
Is it necessary to play? It's serious, isn't it? Huh, doctor
That I have symptoms, optimism in a coma
No, I'm feeling fine Thomas

If I tell you what I felt
Fear, fear
Of not being
Happy happy
When I didn't have faith, I gave up
So soon, so soon
That I didn't even see
The good that I did, that I did

Symptoms like Emely, Sara Genson
I want to save the past and it stops me
Future end, atrophied vision, did I come cross-eyed?
Help me run away from myself
Dude, look at your life, give up
If this God exists, He wants to see you sad
Take the razor and cut yourself
Fuck it, this life is more than crooked
Weren't they Playstation, cards or hearts?
Now gather your corn and make popcorn
Bro, she would have her life for you
She would have given life to the baby
She would have given everything
Oh, and not me?

But we turned our backs, we didn't hold hands
But you didn't deserve it
Nothing more than seeing yourself calling CVV
not God
Let me lie, this love was my sky, it was my floor
Or I call the world for a one on one
Or I leave it on repeat A Change Is Gonna Come
And I leave an old-fashioned letter without emoji
You will see that I was serious in everything I said
If I die today

If I tell you what I felt
Fear, fear
Of not being
Happy happy
When I didn't have faith I gave up
So soon, so soon
That I didn't even see
The good that I did, that I did

From this life, when I'm gone
I take green as a favorite, trees as friends
The heart of a son who really wanted to be a father
Africa marked in everything I feel
The voice of some fight
I was fear and courage in one pot
I'm blind to the sun, even at noon
Optimism turned into kryptonite
Lost again, but this time I gave up on finding myself
Happiness is a chance I don't deserve
Don't mourn my departure, don't feel sorry
Let the truth play its role

I give up on existing
May God forgive me, may love forgive me
May your love take me back home
My best is invisible
All I had is what I felt
Nothing corrupted my heart
I'm tired and tired of being tired
I don't feel like I fit into this plan
My existence wants to escape from him
Marisa Monte was right
I'll be happy too, after this life

Uh, damn
And to think that I wrote
This letter here thinking about saying goodbye
But do you want to know?