La Apuesta

I bet everything and I don't live betting,
and now I'm desperate,
when I should be whole, maybe I just wait,
a gentle gesture to end my anxiety.

It's true, I bet even my shirt,
it gives me fears and joys at the same time,
maybe I just hope for a sign
to pull this dagger out of my chest.

I used to be Kafka-cockroach,
now I have a love in my lapel.
If destiny hits me with the axe,
there will be cobwebs woven by the weeds.

How heavy is your silence,
a single murmur would be enough
to dispel so much disillusionment,
I already have, from my past lives,
scars from another love.

It's true, I bet even my shirt,
it gives me fears and joys at the same time,
maybe I just hope for a sign
to pull this dagger out of my chest.

I used to be melancholy,
now I live the best days of my life.

I throw away the melancholy,
now I live the best days of my life.