Náufragos

It's not as hard
As I think
Nor as easy as you say
And I beat myself up
In the
Darkness to find
My light

I turn around my body
In each coffin
I recognize that you know
That the problem
Is you

I got up
With gaps yesterday
I saw the sunrise
I doubt if
When I win I go back
To losing

I enter a vicious circle
That can't be seen and they call us
At twelve to leave the hotel

The fridge is empty
And I can't fill it properly, my
Buddies don't trust that
I'll come back this month

I took a pill in Ibiza and almost
Couldn't come back but I had
The affection of their eyes and
I was saved
I traveled lost control
Of my body and my touch
I don't know what I felt but
I felt something weird

I forced myself to promise
That I wouldn't try it again
But there are dishes that you
Know I struggle to reject

I know myself and I know
I'm worth it, but if it weren't
For you I would still be tripping, I knew
I had something left, I was
Blank, you put colors
To my paranoia then
I took control

I'm afraid of myself and not of
That shit, I don't know if I'm
Crazy or too sane

Yes, if I keep with the rope it's
Because it tightens, reality
Is the truth with discreet lies

Meanwhile, you can't
Have the lyrics
I write what I feel without
Pretending you understand

You know I have more than enough
Experiences, if you want to understand
Understand it but don't want
To be close

I see the color from afar and endure
This burden, I changed the saturation
And raised the contrast
I fall in love with every beat
And have toxic relationships
With my themes when listening

I would fuck your mind without
Touching you, but physical contact always comes
And to stop it it's too late, I try to do it right
Not beat myself up, but jealousy comes
And those things and they just want
To kill me

The blue light from a window
Has been closed for a while
My desolate heart saw it
It's screaming saying it's so
Angry but if I don't listen
I'll never know what happened

I grew up thinking that
Too much is never enough
I like to risk if the danger
Is high

I don't pay attention to the warning
And I do it just in case
If I don't trust myself, you
Don't either, make it clear

Get it together, I make decisions
You don't, you ask for war
And come to make peace

I'm not a teacher and I'd give you
Four classes
I don't get even a quarter
Of my sentences

And you know it, even though you sin
With ignorance, say
Please and do me the favor
Of saying thank you, it's not
That I've changed and
Now I'm stale, but
It's been ten years since
You talked to me, why
The hell are you talking to me

I have too many words
Actions speak for themselves
What the hell were you expecting if
My eyes were already talking to you

In the end I die anyway
I'm going to invest in creating
A path, my lotus flower

There are assholes in life who
Don't let you live, that's why
You talked to me, for your
Profile picture, if I don't want to
Don't insist on insisting

I knew what you would do
I knew I already saw you
Coming

Bass drum and sprint, I don't
Want to tell you more
Stories, I give you two kisses
To avoid giving you two punches

I have the button, but to
Turn on my ferris wheel, so
Watch out if I go up the
Pressure overwhelms

(I'm afraid of myself
And not of that shit
I don't know if I'm crazy or
I'm too sane
Yes, if I keep with the rope it's
Because it tightens, reality
Is the truth with discreet lies)