Amarte a Ti

Loving you is not the best, I have it clear
With so many things to do, less traumatic
Like finding shapes in the clouds, like going to the movies or doing nothing
Loving you is not the best, but I like it
Maybe I'm playing the masochist as always
Instead of distracting myself with soccer or the internet like everyone else
Loving you is not the best, but it's perfect
To find some meaning in this routine
Of forever being just a citizen, just one more
Loving you makes me suffer, what good luck
To remember that I exist and that I feel
To have something to think about every night, to live
Loving you is a poison that gives life
It's a torch that lights up when it goes out
It's the sublime along with the idiotic, it's what I feel and who cares
Loving you is the most deceitful truth
It's the best of the worst that has happened to me
It's Russian roulette for a kiss, it's the usual improvised
Loving you is a mistake, says a friend who thinks being happy is being free
And misses the nuance that uncertainty brings, loving you
Is the embassy of a moment in my brain
It's also having hated you a couple of times
Loving you is absurd and we know it and it will be as long as it lasts