Pensamentos

Cry for what? Suffer for whom?
Once again hidden feelings in the chest make us hostages
Brings the end of the dream you planned, tear it, throw it if the wind blew
Wanted to be like the calm dawn breeze
Calm, serene, yet impetuous and cold
To be able to pull out feelings from the heart
Free my mind from certain thoughts
To not sleep tired, always wake up late
Lose the childhood of a child with 2 jobs
How much would you pay to at least today
Give your blood by day and not be looked at with disgust at night
Life played a trick on you
In innocence you fell, now it's late, it's over
Can't go back to childhood times
When responsibility was a thing of the future and enjoy childhood

How many sleepless nights I spent reflecting
Trying to see some meaning in life
Sleep without wanting to wake up, wanted to die without feeling pain
I saw that it's not possible
Life passes like the wind
We lose track of time in various moments
Forget to hug those we love so much
But it's so good to receive a hug
When we need it the most
The tears that flow on my face
Are from someone who has been at the bottom of the dungeon
In half solitude and abstinence
The disgust for life, the weight on the conscience
I lied to myself, there's no way
That's what gives me a tightness in the chest
But with faith I will walk
God doesn't give a cross bigger than you can carry

Yeah, you never killed anyone
But how many words have you also thrown in the wind?
Words that explode in the ear
Of someone on a bad day
Whom depression hit harder
The damage was worse than you thought
Like a push in a place without ground
Fell and stayed
To be stronger you
Take it out on others
The anger that was taken out on you
And the heart, hardened by a beating every day
Is an easy target for loneliness on a cold night
For insomnia when lying on the pillow
Why sleep if when you wake up
It's the same nightmare?
The problems are the same
You are still the same
The same dark circles on your face in front of the mirror
The same rules, the same routine
It's all that makes me want
To lose the will to live

Suffering life since childhood
I carry grudges
Criminal life that brought me
Tragic consequences
Shaken psyche
Until today I suffer from
The consequences of the past
Marks of life that I still can't forget
Living with separated parents was difficult for me
I always got red marks in school
Humiliated by classmates
When I did poorly on a test
Therapy sessions
Dreaming of having a united family is logical
I always imagined the world differently
But it seems that things
Just go wrong for us
I don't understand why so much suffering
This anguish we carry in our hearts
Battle after battle
But don't forget that the light
At the end of the tunnel never goes out!