Astor

It's been already
A few months
I don't try anything anymore
I know you don't want to see me

Every time I look
At the books you left me
And that I didn't return to you
Because I'm a mess

I can't help but think
That I feel like seeing you
And being friends again
Like we always were

And meet at your house
On Sunday afternoons
Bathe at the beach
Go to the movies on Tuesdays

This is shit
I'm not being immature
This pact of silence
Seems like a dictatorship

And even though it seems logical
I no longer understand it
That after so many years
Now we don't even talk

I can't help but think
That I feel like seeing you
And being friends again
Like we always were

And meet at your house
On Sunday afternoons
Bathe at the beach
Go to the movies on Tuesdays

I get nervous
When taking the subway
In case we meet later
In space-time

And even though I'm embarrassed
To greet you again
As if nothing happened
I won't know how to behave

And I have to be careful
When going to concerts
In case I see you there later
After so long
And we avoid eye contact
Like they do in that Japanese comic

I can't help but think
That I feel like seeing you
And being friends again
Like we always were

And meet at your house
On Sunday afternoons
When there's nothing to do
But that's not possible
Because I know you don't want to see me anymore