A Song for XX

Why are you crying?
Why are you lost?
Why are you standing still?
Hey, tell me.
Since when did you grow up?
How long can you stay a kid?
Where did you run from?
Hey, where are you running to?

I couldn't find a place to belong, couldn't find it.
Not knowing if I can expect anything from the future.

They always said I was a strong kid, kept saying it.
They praised me for not crying, said I was doing great.
I never wished for those words, not even once.
So I pretended I didn’t understand.

Why are you smiling?
Why are you by my side?
Why are you drifting away?
Hey, tell me.
Since when did you get strong?
Since when did you feel weak?
How long do I have to wait
For the day we can understand each other?

The sun is rising, I should be going soon.
I can't stay in the same place forever.

Believing in people, at some point, I got betrayed.
I thought it was the same as being set free.
Back then, I had no strength at all.
I was probably too aware of too many things.

They always said I was a strong kid, kept saying it.
They praised me for not crying, said I was doing great.
The more they said it, the more it hurt to smile.

Born alone, living alone,
I thought that kind of daily life was just normal.