Suficiente

For some time
To this point
I lost a part of me
That I considered
Was for me

By right
For having fought
It was for me

But I was wrong
Because that's not how things are
I can continue lying to everyone
But not to myself

The last five years were a total disaster
Falling, getting up, falling backwards
Being shattered and broken at the same time

I don't know if
This happens to everyone
But I do know it's happening to me
I don't know if
This happens to everyone
Enough that it's happening to me

My last three partners turned out to be a total disaster
Talking, listening, pretending interest
Being present, but dazed

A bucket of coffee with tears and slaps
(Keeping quiet and talking inside me)
Changing the channel, finding myself the same
Heartbroken, bewildered at the same time

I don't know if
This happens to everyone
But I do know it's happening to me
I don't know if
This happens to everyone
Enough that it's happening to me

I don't know if
This happens to everyone
But I do know it's happening to me
I don't know if
This happens to everyone
Enough for me