Dueles

Because when you stay
I feel like I'm just anyone
As if by wanting, I no longer deserve to be loved
As if by loving you, I no longer deserve the pain

Who do you think you are by planting doubt in your fingers
I don't know who to believe anymore, my reason or your jealousy
Remind me of what you've been to me all this time because
I don't feel you anymore, I can't find you

Because there are things that hurt so much
Like seeing that it keeps raining
Seeing that you keep penetrating, seeing that I keep crying
Seeing that you keep killing me

And in my skin rise
Sand castles flatten
They break with just the palm
Of your hands on my back

I don't know how to leave
Now I imprison myself, I don't want to decide
I don't know what's happening
I don't know what's happening

I just want it to happen
Let me throw myself
Without you pushing me first