La Vague

I gotta talk to you
Since it's so present in me
Describing it isn't easy
So I'll do my best if you have a little time
Let me tell you about this thing
That's a bit me, but not really
And I don't know how to live with it
But I don't know how to live without

It goes through me everywhere, at all times
Makes me say what I don't want
Think and act, contrary to my heart
Think and act in place of me
I call it my flame, I call it my wave
Sweet and docile, then anger and rage at the same time
This tidal wave in me, this storm
That makes me say and do anything

I wonder how those who don't explode do it
Who pretend, who contain themselves, never overflowing
I don't know how to lie, nor hold back my tears, nor contain my rage

Seems like that's love, my love
It's offering even the knots, even the worst
Seems like that's love, my love
It's offering even the knots, even the worst
Seems like that's love, my love
It's offering even the knots, even the worst
Seems like that's love, my love
So I offer you my knots and my worst

I know, I'm not 15 anymore
I should see it coming, even from afar, as she's not very discreet
I'm working on it, I swear, that's the worst part
And I'm learning to suffer and to love with it
I'd like to be gentle, always tender
Leaving on your heart only beautiful words to hear
I'd like to know how to lie when things aren't going well
And even know how to laugh when it's not funny
I'd like to be calm, more consistent sometimes
Less wild, less violent, less intense, less fiery

But when she surges, hello devastation
She takes my voice, my gaze, my face
If she only hurt me, I wouldn't say
But look, look at the state of my shore
It's this tidal wave, this storm in me
That tightens my throat and explodes at the same time
Tell me I'm not alone
And especially not crazy
Tell me I'm not alone
And not crazy at all

Seems like that's love, my love
It's offering even the knots, even the worst
Seems like that's love, my love
It's offering even the knots, even the worst
Seems like that's love, my love
So I offer you my knots and my worst
So I offer you my knots and my worst

I call her The Wave