Ojalá (feat. Dulce María)

I need the drive, not just the will to win
And if one day I lose my fear of losing
It hurts to have run just to not arrive
Now I know that the journey is the goal too

I've grown fears that I never taught
And I know the answers for not asking
I felt like no one when I had the good
And I cried like everyone when something's gone

No one teaches you to be strong, but they force you
No one ever wanted a weakling to trust
No one teaches you the steps in a world
That forces you every day to get up and walk

Where you were so happy, you'll always return
Even if you confuse pain with happiness
And you may not even be yourself, but think of yourself
And that will kill you

And I wish they never hug you for the last time
There are so many to be with, but no one to be
We're just paths that tend to twist
Thousands of loose complexes we need to overcome

I wish they accepted you for the first time
And understood that we all deserve good
That there's no one who shouldn't have
Since we are circumstances we never chose to be

Trust never came back with time
And the fruit of my life isn't based on what I have
And if all the moments could pass more slowly
If you ever doubted this time in the attempt

And if we understood that we are perfect
Despite the smudges that want to stain the canvas
Everything is a sum, though the rest doesn't think so
One thing is what I am and another just what I show

Because I no longer fear losing, but giving up
Because I no longer want to win, but to be convinced
That long before being happy, I must be with myself
That I'm going to look at the rope and say: I'm still here

That I'm going to stop demanding everything I ask of myself
And I'm going to learn to accept what I never achieve
That I'm going to stop blaming myself, lying to myself, failing myself
Telling myself late truths that I need

Because I also dedicated time
To those who don't even remember me
I also pieced together the fragments
Of the same thing I later broke
I haven't understood myself
And I've understood that it will be this way
I haven't been confused
I've been fused with the worst of me

I've moved into problems
And I've wanted to be happy there
And I've gone around in circles
For not getting you out of the way
I've asked everyone
To define myself
How do you tell a river
To stop and cease to flow?

No one teaches you to be strong, but they force you
No one ever wanted a weakling to trust
No one teaches you the steps in a world
That forces you every day to get up and walk

Where you were so happy, you'll always return
Even if you confuse pain with happiness
And you may not even be yourself, but think of yourself
And that will kill you

And I wish they never hug you for the last time
There are so many to be with, but no one to be
We're just paths that tend to twist
Thousands of loose complexes we need to overcome

I wish they accepted you for the first time
And understood that we all deserve good
That there's no one who shouldn't have
Since we are circumstances we never chose to be