Pretended (T.O.P)

Yo, this is the song for my ex-girlfriend, alright?
I promise I ain't gonna hold back, babe
I'm gonna give it all to you
Let’s go

I’m just pretending it’s all good
Should I call you or not?
I’m just pretending it’s all good
Another day goes by, oh oh
It’s been a while since I called you, just wanted to say I’m sorry
I called just to say that, and I feel even worse
Honestly, I don’t have much to say, but I’m rambling
I’m just curious if you’re doing alright
Why do you ask what I need?
Had another drink, huh?
I hate that one word, pretending to be fine
It’s a forced conversation
On the line, you’re silent, just waiting
My pride is stuck, what really matters?
(I wanna run to you, but still)
I’m struggling here, trying to act cool, pretending it’s all good
(If I could just let go of my regrets, if I could shake off this hate)
I know you’re the only one
Late to the party, I’m sorry, my bad

I’m just pretending it’s all good
Should I call you or not?
I’m just pretending it’s all good
Another day goes by, oh oh

I’m just pretending it’s all good
Pretending nothing’s wrong
Trying to erase your traces
I’m getting used to it, oh oh

I need you to come back
Honestly, I wanna say it
But it’s heavy on my heart
Falling, where the hell are you? I can’t forget you
(Why?) I still remember your birthday
Oh no, I don’t believe
My smile turned sad, people
Felt like we were close, like friends
Late-night calls, back then we had so much to say
So how are you doing? Is it a lot?
I still can’t keep the promise that weighs on my mind
Are you worried too? Are you staying up like me? I feel worse
You said I was too much, what’s the problem? I’m still clumsy
Yeah, it’s a foolish late regret (where you at?)
What happens if you leave?

I’m just pretending it’s all good
Should I call you or not?
I’m just pretending it’s all good
Another day goes by, oh oh

I’m just pretending it’s all good
Pretending nothing’s wrong
Trying to erase your traces
I’m getting used to it, oh oh

You’re with another guy, it’s nothing new
Why are you talking to me like this now?
Your future was more important, right?
(Just say I’m a liar instead)
You did what you wanted, so why now?
What are you saying? I don’t get it
Just say I’m a liar
Let’s just pretend I didn’t hear and end it here

You don’t know how much I’ve been thinking all night
I’m saying goodbye while making you cry
You don’t know how much I’ve been thinking all night
This song doesn’t even touch my pain, oh oh oh

You don’t know how much I’ve been thinking all night
I’m saying goodbye while making you cry
You don’t know how much I’ve been thinking all night
This song doesn’t even touch my pain, oh oh oh