La Vie de Rêve

Diam's replied to my email
She told me, the hardest part isn't making it, it's staying true to yourself
I’m growing up but I’m still the kid everyone loves
Comfortable in the big leagues, but I still get nervous in real life
We’ve come a long way since the RC days
Flo keeps telling me, Oli chill out, you made it!
But I live with my guts, always on the lookout for a rival
They know it when I catch their gaze at the festival
Flashes of parties, memories of dreams in my head
I promise soon I’ll stop, at 100 I’ll retire
But I struggle to own my face on the posters
Freaked out, 'cause I’m still not vaccinated against big-headedness
No, don’t be scared of the speed, 7 shows a week
I don’t like to sleep much, 'cause my dreams aren’t as good as the life I lead
And it shocks them, I’m that wild kid
I rap in New York, I crossed the postcard
To say I can’t do it is almost insulting
I could go to war with a toothpick
Who can stop us? Not even cancer
Not even a psycho who kidnaps or robs me at the end of a show
I’ve got only rap, buddy so understand it’s my concern
I rise above the clashes and the guys who spit on me and my brother
I won’t do them any favors, I’m not that young rapper anymore
I was already dropping crazy verses barely out of my mom’s womb
And I see us, I see us all in the house
Average family, suburban neighborhood
Today they all think we’ve become millionaires
And the worst part is, they’re right
But I can’t stop thinking about the struggles of those close to me
I feel guilty for every damn penny I pocket
I don’t buy much, even the things I need
No, it’s not humility, I just don’t feel legit
I apologize to my family, who I miss to be honest
To my girlfriend, when I’m with her but not really there
To the artists I envied, to the point of hating them
On the other side of the barrier, I was too scared to stay
I apologize to my friends for the birthdays I missed
For all the times they talk about me, for the things I didn’t do
I apologize to my brother, who my mind wears out
Take time for yourself, finally get off the rollercoaster
This story is almost magical, enough to make you think it’s easy
They see us as a glitch in the machine, the support and hope of the whole city
But in front of the mirror, I remain fragile
Thousands of women and fans that my lyrics accompany
And it’s love that wins when we fill the venues, I don’t know if you can imagine
I feel good, I think I’m becoming a man
I’ve toured France many times
I’m still waiting for my yellow jersey
They say I’m simple, but it’s because success scares me
My lack of confidence keeps me from saying it’s me who did it
Awkward, in my poems there are spelling mistakes
Feeling like a Kardashian since my dad signs autographs
Our audience, a family that sticks together
In secret, I imagine your smile when you listen to me
By the way, Oli look, yeah everything’s good here
Stop crying at night, I swear we made it
Stop obsessing over death, you’ve got your gold records
Don’t complain too much about the parents, you’ll understand we were wrong
Mistakes to make, loves to know, it’s crazy
I can’t say who would’ve thought?
'Cause everyone believed in us
I love you my brother, to me you’re Michael Jackson
When does this dream stop?
I’m scared the alarm will ring

The dream life, huh?
So, you made it?
And what are you going to do with your real life?
Which one is your real life anyway?
The real life, the dream life
We don’t understand anything anymore
You did it then, after all this time

We came in war, and we leave in peace
Thanks to all the guardian angels watching over us
I have a hard time realizing we did it
So, I pinch my arm every time I get on stage
Dad, share the success with us
Mom saw me in a suit at the Victoires de la Musique
I feel fulfilled, time is no longer counted
We weren’t wrong, 'cause the Zéniths were full
I’m in real estate, call me Mister
Rolex on my wrist, my time is precious
I shared the cash with the needy
I sold more albums than there are people in my city
So I don’t want any more clashes, rage, or jealousy
There’ll be another album, don’t worry I haven’t said it all yet
I spread the light, I crush all my fears
I don’t envy other artists anymore, I wish them the best
The cooking was very slow, today I savor
I made a lot of money, now I want to make love
And let it last forever, by the way Orelsan, it’s no hard feelings
We told you to be on time, artistic is the heat
In its entirety
People listen to our sounds with their hearts
Principles and values, that’s my greatest pride
So there won’t be any stories of rape, no stories of theft
No fights, 'cause the first one to hit isn’t a man
No scammed friends, or partners we abandon
No alcohol on the floor, or coke in the green rooms
No cheating stories, on all the numbers of our records
No tax issues, or problems with the cops
I have to be an example, I’m not afraid to play my role
'Cause there are a lot of kids listening to rap in schools
Lost artists, coked managers, understand that with
Oli we prefer to stay on the sidelines
In our city, its calm and beauty
Far from the capital, this bomb that wants to blow us up
And the scene looks at us sideways
As if we just landed by the back road
I’m going to head south, restart my life in the countryside
I’ll let you drown your lies in your champagne glasses
I’m going to step away for a while, far from their dirty stories
Have drinks with friends on Saturday night
Play video games all afternoon
Lay down with a girl, to stretch the night
I’m going back to real life, I’m hitting pause
Some time ago I cracked
I was close to losing it
My compass was off, I lost my head and my way
I was losing consciousness at the end of shows
I couldn’t handle the photos or my brother’s comments
When my mind spoke, my body said the opposite
So I slowed down, and then I understood
I had a heart too empty, and a head too full
Now I’m doing better, but I need air
I’ll always be a helping hand if you need it
Thanks again to our audience, even if I’ve probably said it too much
You’re all the authors of the script of our lives
I won’t have enemies anymore, I’ve destroyed the sword
My tree has grown well, it’s full of sap
This story is magical, and won’t be brief
So I think about the future and what it holds for me
I feel the fatigue, soon the truce will come
If I jump into the void, Oli is my trapeze
Here’s a new cycle, when this one ends
From real life, to the dream life.