To My Youth (나의 사춘기에게)

I once wished to disappear from this world
The whole world was too dark
The days I cried every night
Would it be easier if I disappeared instead?
The gaze of everyone looking at me is too scary

Beautiful, beautiful days
I was in pain
I couldn't receive love
I hated myself too much
Even though my mom and dad
Only look at me
That's not what my heart wants
But it keeps getting further away

What should I do, what should I do, what should I do, what should I do

They say time is a medicine
It really suits me
The more days pass, the better it gets
But sometimes, if I'm too happy
I'm afraid it will hurt again
I'm afraid someone will take away
The happiness I have

The beautiful, beautiful memories
I'm in pain
Even though it hurts so much
It doesn't disappear
Even though my friends and people
Only look at me
That's not what my appearance is
But it keeps getting further away

Still, maybe
I could be a bright light in this world
Maybe I'll step on all the pain
And shine briefly
I can't give up
I, who couldn't sleep comfortably for a day
If I try to get up like this
Hoping someone will find me

How much, how much did it hurt?
How much, how much did it hurt?
How much, how much did I wish?