Si Aún No Me Mato Es Por Tí

I wanted to be the happy child
And live for your sweet dreams
Feel that tense reality
In the distance
Moving away from me

50 capsules caress my throat
In a cocktail of arsenics
I adore the feeling
Of losing consciousness
Witnessing my absence

Listen
The blade follows the map of my veins
See how the bleeding, baby
Fills the bathtub
With my warm blood
The delight that death savors
When it feels hungry

And that Valium bread
With that liquor bread
The exit from life
Wonderful for
Resting this tired mind
Living as if something mattered

At this point the problems
Seem smaller
What if I dive headfirst into them?
You want a hiding place
The hiding place is forever
They called it the cave of death

The taste
Of love in me
Ignited eternal tears
Feel it, in your arms
It's fading
If I'm still alive it's because of you

The noise, the flesh
Desire, kisses
The soul, the guilt, yours?
Excuse me, mine
The rage, sex, the weather
The countdown
The day I live my life

I don't set dates or days
If I want your life to be mine
If I want my time
Clock in reverse
To slide
To the rhythm of the universe

They are withered flowers
They are a bottle of anguish
With rum only put conviction
Life on the train line
You see
Now everything is fine

The corners of the mouth
Split from laughter
Clowns dead without a smile

It's the absurd comedy of the world
That causes nausea
The aimlessness

My revolver fires to not return
Kiss my forehead
Pierce my skin with love
That rope around the neck looks good
When it tightens the throat
Until it disappears

And the fire in the garden of Eden
A black Sun over the sea
In an ugly dawn

I only have two alternatives
One, death
Two, life