Janus

I'm smiling right now, but I'm trying hard to hold back
I'm holding on to my two trembling hands with all my strength
You're being deceived when I say you're okay
I'm shedding all my tears behind my back
Those trembling little shoulders, those little lips
I'm sorry you collapsed in front of me
Swallowing the hot me and stealing your tears
I'm sorry, I hug you with all my strength

A sigh over your shoulder
Tears welling up over your shoulder
I leave that in the eyes that only I know
I want to live in your memories until the end
I just want to laugh in your memories
Like a fool, I just smile at you

You're not a bad girl, you're not a bad girl
Take away the tears you shed for me
That kid got hurt because of me
So you have to endure it again and again

Why are you crying, why are you crying because of me?
You always smile brightly, why do you cry?
Forget it, I just shake it all off and leave in peace
I don't believe you, I don't want to hold you back

A heart beating deep in my chest
The regret held deep in my heart
I ask this with a heart that only I know
I want to see only your smile until the end
I just want to protect your smile
Just smile at me like yesterday

You're not a bad girl, you're not a bad girl
here in my heart in my heart
I hide my insides, I hide them for you
I have to hold on to myself again and again

Only you are my master and if you want
you can leave me
I'm willing to let you go, for you I'm letting you go

You're not a bad girl, you're not a bad girl
Take away the tears you shed for me
That kid got hurt because of me
So you have to endure it again and again

I'm smiling right now, but I'm trying hard to hold back
I'm holding on to my two trembling hands with all my strength
You're being deceived when I say you're okay
I'm shedding all my tears behind my back