Querida Amalia

Hello, can you not hear me anymore?
I am that voice that lives in your head
Why do you fear me? Why do you ignore me?
No matter how many pills you take, you hear

That controls you, I have you imprisoned
Come listen to me, I'm dangerous
I know you love it when I talk to you like this, if it weren't for me you wouldn't be here

Your father is an alcoholic, your mother is a narcissist
So buckle up, my girl, and enjoy the view
That your life will not be as pretty as a fairy tale
Don't believe Mickey Mouse, he only tells you stupid things

What I'm going to tell you is very difficult to hear
On your 7th birthday the neighbor is going to play
To tell you as always that if you go out
Let's play, but now it's different because
Today he is going to rape you

What did I do wrong?
There is no point in shouting anymore
This is my funeral, I'm a ghost, I've got spiders in my belly

(Nobody can save you) oh oh
(Nobody can save you) oh oh
(Nobody can save you) oh oh

Your dreams no longer exist, now there are only nightmares
You are no longer afraid of death, but you are terrified of life
Kids your age are going to be bastards because they act like hitmen with angelic faces

And sorry to say this but it gets worse
You will see the bony one when you turn 22, and after that event the doctor will prescribe you some white pills
So that there is no more pain

And you don't feel anything anymore, forgive me that I couldn't do anything
You could never be in love
Dear Amalia, this is the last call

What did I do wrong? (What did I do wrong?)
(What did I do wrong?) (what did I do wrong?)
I'm a ghost, I have spiders in my belly
(What did I do wrong? There's no point in screaming anymore, this is my funeral, I'm a ghost, I have spiders in my belly)

Now I'm writing to you from a coma to see if you're listening to me
I walk around with a gun
That only points to me
I want to see my grandmother now that we are dead
They have her in the corner, supposedly for bad behavior

I think I failed the exam to become an adult
Everyone sees me and says I'm a whore
Life fucked me and I only asked for the tip
All these shadows want to sell me my mood, baby
Sorry I lost you, sorry I didn't write to you anymore
I think I'm going to stay here