Lo Que Jamás Será

We shared cigarettes like they were candy
Confessions between laughs, us and the Uber guy
You taught me about songs, distrust, and harmonies
But I never thought that today I wouldn’t talk to you (today)

I don’t know why I get the feeling
That like me, you’re also wondering what happened to us
And underwater, the color faded away
An unfinished chapter where no one wrote anymore

And I don’t look at you anymore, I don’t say hi
But I swear there are times I really doubt it
Is there a way to fix what was
What is, what will never be

At the bottom of every bottle
That got us drunk enough to see stars
We danced to the beat of another dimension
Where we never grew up, where no one changed

(And you) don’t look or say hi either
But I know that like me, you doubt it too
If there’s a way to fix what was
What is, what will never be

Planes and loves, the good and the bad
Countless arguments, the expensive and the cheap
Contrast of ideologies, values, or hypocrisy
Call it what you want, in the end, it was worth it to me

But tell me, how do I stop the clock?
How do I ask someone who never knew
That version of me that brought us together
If she’s buried, under my ruins?

And I don’t forget that even though you didn’t defend me
I know you loved me even though I knew you had to go
And you don’t forget that I was the one who left you
And even if it hurts, anonymity suits me better

I don’t look at you anymore, I don’t say hi
But I swear there are times I really doubt it
Is there a way to save what was
What is, what will never be

(And you) don’t look or say hi either
But I know that like me, you doubt it too
If there’s a way to save what was
What is, what will never be

We don’t look at each other anymore, we never talk
And we pretend that we ignore each other
And we love each other even from afar
Because it’s easier if it’s a secret