La Estrategia

I know it's never good to show up, that I shouldn't call her
It should seem like I'm okay, that I've already forgotten her
Still, I know it was her decision and I must respect it
And I must suppress this hope of loving her again

If I do everything right, maybe someday I'll make her cry
And it's not that I want her to suffer, I just don't want her to ignore me
That even though I did it without guilt, maybe my fears won over me
If I do everything right, maybe someday she'll come back and fall in love

Doing everything without mistakes, to see if I captivate you
And look for the perfect excuse, so you know I'm still alive
And to make that call, to show that I still exist
The strategy is the least of it, I just want to hear your voice

I don't want to keep playing
For my friends to decide what I do
The truth is I'm suffocating
By swallowing my words, and not saying I miss you
And not saying I love you

Your departure hurts so much that I pray for anesthesia
A heart bleeds while yours has amnesia
It doesn't remember that night we swore to be eternal
That we were going to give everything to love each other
That parallel universe where you still love me
Is the cure at times for what hurts so much
Abandonment hurts so much, I gave you everything you have
And the more love I give you, the more you sharpen it and hurt me

I've heard around that you forgot me and you're no longer sad
That there's someone else and you no longer care about what you once felt for me
And I don't lose hope and dream that you lied to them
And that you're using the same strategy I used when you left

I don't want to keep playing
For my friends to decide what I do
The truth is I'm suffocating
By swallowing my words, and not saying I miss you
And not saying I love you