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Who are you, that I can't save myself
accursed doll, punishment from God...
A gust of wind that tears apart in its fury a yesterday
of tenderness, of home, and of faith...
Because of you, my life has changed
-sacred and simple like a prayer-
into a barbaric horror of problems
that clogs my veins and clouds my honor.

I can't be more vile
nor can I be better,
defeated by your spell
that disrupts my duty...
Because of you, I've destroyed
my wife's life
and all the luxury I've given you
is the bread of my two children.
I couldn't react
nor can I understand,
lost in the storm
of your voice that bewitched me...
The silk of your skin that shakes me
and blossoms with my downfall...

Determined to erase with a shot
her accursed shadow that is already an obsession,
I've searched in my night for a place to die,
but the weapon loosens in betrayal...
I don't know if I deserve this fierce disgrace,
but instead, I have come to know
that it's a lie that I don't kill myself
thinking of my children... no, I do it for you...