Tristura

I think I know myself better since I'm someone else
That only if loneliness leaves, I stay alone, you all
You don't know this abandonment
I left without making noise, without clocks, without phones
Just me and the song of a cricket

And the contemplation of a dim constellation
And if everything I have goes with me in this absurd coat
That is my skin, I don't feel cold, my friend
My memory gets lost in oblivion
Like all the words
That I told you and you didn't listen

They were just noise, drag me
Wind of the road to where
No one finds me, I want to be lost
Lost from you all, I swear
I discover that nostalgia doesn't exist
When you believe in the future

Alone, racing against the midnight hours
Looking for figures in the clouds
That's how I spend my days, I don't know if it's Tuesday or Monday
I escape from time until
You don't look for me anymore

I'll cry from loneliness, but I had to escape
I'll die from loneliness, and so you won't find me

I've been out of myself for so long
So long without crying
That I don't know how to do it anymore
I wait for the bus at the stop
For your laughter but I miss it
Like this last day
That you left almost raining

Almost making the same case again
The traffic lights turn red if they see me pass
But if you see that I'm gentle, you tame me
If you see that I don't understand you, damn, speak to me in my language
Take as a joke, everything I say that scares you
Take seriously, everything I have that you like

I don't know if you are the same as when you were you
But have I changed, or am I still as complicated, huh?
I know some time has passed
And I know I haven't cried
Since then feelings
So overshadowed by studies

Head downpours that not even God helped
Past July?
It seemed like it wasn't moving forward
But the days went by even though nothing was happening, but
Something was happening inside my body and since then
I've lived as if I were dead
I'm sorry

Maybe it's too late
To go back to being a coward
Maybe it's too late
Or too soon to go back to being a fool

I'll cry from loneliness, but I had to escape
I'll die from loneliness, and so you won't find me