I Want To Die (Shinde Shimaitai)

Centimilimental's song 'I Want To Die (Shinde Shimaitai)' delves deep into the emotional turmoil of someone grappling with the desire to end their life. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of a person who feels like their life is akin to a pile of garbage they can't discard. This metaphor highlights the sense of worthlessness and burden the individual feels, yet they continue to live each day despite these overwhelming emotions.

The repetition of the phrase '死んでしまいたい' (I want to die) underscores the intensity and persistence of these feelings. However, the song also reveals a paradox: the person cannot bring themselves to die. This contradiction is further explored as the lyrics describe the destruction of their 'heart's pillar'—a symbol of their core beliefs and hopes—leaving them feeling utterly broken and trampled upon.

Despite the recurring desire to die, the song also touches on the fear of pain and suffering, both physical and emotional. The individual acknowledges that reality is often more painful and distressing than the thought of death. Yet, amidst this despair, there is a glimmer of hope and a desire to see tomorrow, to be held and comforted, and to experience love and connection. This duality of wanting to die but also wanting to live and be loved encapsulates the complex and often contradictory nature of human emotions, especially in the face of deep psychological pain.

'I Want To Die (Shinde Shimaitai)' is a poignant exploration of the human condition, capturing the essence of despair, the fear of pain, and the longing for connection and understanding. Centimilimental's raw and honest portrayal of these emotions resonates deeply, offering a voice to those who may feel similarly lost and conflicted.