I Want To Die (Shinde Shimaitai)

Wanting to discard but unable to discard
Like a pile of trash
My 'life' is still alive today
I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
But, I can't die

This, this alone
The pillar of my believed heart
Is bent and trampled
Everything is crumbling

I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
But, I can't die

I want to die, I want to die
But I hate pain, I hate suffering
But reality is more painful and suffering
I want to die, but I still can't die

I don't want to die
But I want to die
I want to live, but I want to escape
I want to be by your side, but my heart hurts so much
I want to die, but I want to see tomorrow
I want to be held, I want to sleep in your arms
I don't need to wake up from that
But I want to see your face
Now I'm changing, all these contradictions
Are my everything
Surely my everything