Enamorado

I record just for you to listen to me
I want to see your eyes shine
Like that afternoon every night, your jet black hair
I will get tangled up, I will adore you
And I'll give you my best rhyme
What is more valuable than a stuffed animal?

I won't fight for you if I can barely start my days
There is no energy
I am allergic to joy
And fear of leaving home
Why don't you come and hug me?
Your calls are becoming increasingly rare

I wake up crying at two, three, four
And I try to go back to sleep
Even if it's just for a little while
I don't want to feel the existence
I want to escape from suffering
But I will never be able to leave Vladimir
Tormented, I don't want to go crazy
I've been crazy before
My mood is terrible

She was determined to say no to her boyfriend
I became obsessed with his kisses even if they were messed up
I must confess that I have dreamed that I died
And I see you crying, isolated from everyone I love
At my funeral I saw more people than I imagined
I marginalized myself from the aboragine
I realized that they really had faith in me
But I disappointed, I gave up
I destroyed lungs, liver and septum
Do you want to know why?
It is precisely because I could not find the reason for anything
And because even though I had something to fight with, I always faltered

I used to lock myself away
To write to heal myself
Today I lock myself up because pain wants to love me in private
I would like her to go with someone else
But I know that soon I myself
I would ask him to come back
I have lived so much with her
I don't know how to live any other way
Know the saddest thing in the world
This girl is not single

Nobody knows self-destruction better than me
I want to forget that episode when that happened
I am writing to you just so you can hear me
So that you light up my world
With your eyes and that great flash

In love with sadness
With sonnets, consonants and verses
I wanted to kiss princesses
But only sad when I was happy
It was always there
To my regret, in my regret to weigh

Today every tear is a kiss
Every kiss a verse
Each verse looked at your tears
And every cry is for that
Why the excess of agony
Devour my progress
And among so much crying
Nobody could hear my prayers

Every week we drink something of death
We talk about how bad everything is
And that you don't have to be strong anymore
She doesn't demand, she's not jealous
She knows that anything bothers me
I think our relationship is going well
When I'm sad, Tris is too
And since I'm never happy
We never argue
We fight the fair fight
We come together when we suffer
But she doesn't know self-destruction like I do
So everything I keep quiet and what I don't
It doesn't affect her, she's perfect
She chases me, I am her favorite obsession
It gives me ecstasy
And when I cry it is catharsis
Escaping tris is almost
Being without air, drowning without
She lay there, with her I was born, so I became acidic to her voice and she to mine
When taciturn, immersed in nocturnal vices
I was hoping that my turn for a suit would come as soon as possible
The eternal winter turned my heart tender
In a hell that I don't want to be
I don't want to see him die
My character, I saw another dawn rise
Like yesterday, I suffer from having it
She has me for pleasure
And I want to be alone
That's not going to be possible