Fade Out

Have you ever felt like death was pulling you in?
Or like it was trying to drag you away from here?
Have you ever felt like you were fading away?
Have you ever felt like you were dying?

The threatening walls are closing in on me
They loom larger with arrogance because I’ve grown weak
Silenced and feeble, I found myself defenseless
Paralyzed and as still as a mannequin

Millions of thoughts race by and settle
On everything in the universe, then vanish in an instant
And they imagine raining rose petals
On this body that’s dying, resting under ashes

There are a thousand kids with red eyes acting as judges
And my powerless hands succumb to their old age
There are a thousand piercing screams of babies all at once
And a thousand hands dragging me down by my feet
I feel myself fading away little by little
There was no light at first, and there’s none at the end of the tunnel
In the cracks of my skin screams the echo of an earthquake
I feel the tremor of the world’s guilt in my broken chest

Fade out... Again

The walls crumble in slow motion
Drowned screams proclaim, the time has come
I’m fading and falling, I feel myself sinking
Into the jaws of oblivion in the depths of time
I’m extinguishing, drifting, see my life like a flash
And the faces of demons laughing all around
Laughter that hurts, a thousand voices that want me
This exhausted breath exhales a: "don’t take me yet"

I can feel the larvae under my skin
Like the guilt in a cheater
Like the wounded pride in him
Gnawing from within slower than the clock
I can hear the world spinning
And how God is aging
My last breath will be more like a sigh
Resigned and worn out, I feel uninspired
I feel my fade out, feel myself disappearing
It seems like I’m perishing, I acknowledge, I deserve it.