Rijaab

Loneliness, because of you

Does my loneliness make you laugh?
You fade away in the breeze
My essence is honey
And you fixate on the needle

On the eyelashes, ash-filled gunk
And a black widow in the room
Hurrying to catch her prey

Surprise, I’m no longer one of the proud
Shaking, wounded
Nor did I catch how everything was lost
Nerves gather like water
Ego shrinks like shoulders
Who saw me, who sees me, let it be the proverb

The fire erupts from my insides
Between my yellowed fangs
The spiders
Thus, acidic words have been harmful
You are the shadow of the sky
Once you exploded in my chest

The thunder when it quiets
Releases the most hurtful
The weary spirit
And the cracked lies

Wonders of forgetfulness have finally arrived
Rub your mane on your violin
My wolves will feast musically

Let go of the eyeballs
This is a party!
Raise your thumbs
Show your joy!

Biting your lips
Now feels like biting the dust
The poetry has faded
The poetry that was ours
Is its defeat
And it’s hard to admit
For my part, I stray
I follow the blackbird's song
And if one day I have a son
He won’t be Wladimir, no
He’ll be the happiest being
And I too for knowing it

Finally, you left
And I didn’t get to dress you in art
I do my part, trying to improve myself

It’s disarmament
Kissing me
The biggest petals
Have disappeared fears
Palaces of the guilty

Desiring me is sliding through thoughts
Confrontations are two, fighting with the wind

You would have been immortal
But it couldn’t happen
I no longer hear your voice
I cry for you
Over the coffin
I finally chose to steal from him

Loneliness, because of you

To steal from him
Spark to the virtue
The troubadour walks the paths
Improved his health
Now he drinks dew
And sings with his feet in the river
The little poems that termites once devoured

And happy, all calm
Taking naps under the willow
Singing with the crickets
In the moors, poplars applaud

What a lovely detour!
I’m devoted to my own
If you hear me, I heard you tonight
Be clear that it’s me and I smile
Hate, goodbye!
I just realized that I always
Saw the empty glasses

I’m now convinced
That tomorrow the sun will rise
And even if it’s cloudy,
There it will be fulfilling its role, as it should

Maybe it’s cold and that’s why it covered up
Or maybe it’s waiting for me to say its armor opened
But to understand it, I had to hit rock bottom
Ask for help and accept that I was arrogant and very foolish

I plead from this miserable flesh
That they respect and believe in my process to heal
But if not, it doesn’t matter, it’s understandable
I’m gnawing at my chains, I’ll be free by accepting myself

Caterpillar and butterfly fly the same way
For humans, the same rule applies
No one is good, no one is bad
Why do you judge?
It’s not fair
That your own flaws are what you seek in others

I’ve rolled my eyes and left my life as a pledge
I’m starting over and going for it
In the jungle, there are new paths

And if we delve into my hypothalamus
We’ll see such love
With poplars under your sun
But today we cut them down

Come, I want to show you something
I’m the cicada and I sing
See how I emerge from my body
The path to the light will be dark and long,
But it’s in my hands, that’s why I open my fists

Loneliness, because of you