透明 (toumei)

whispered in my ear
wet lips glimmered, so enticing

her lies here feel like truth
let's keep this our little secret forever

sadness is just an illusion
I can wipe it away with a kiss
I don’t need anything else
even if I’m left in a shifting sky
in a delicate, wandering little world

suddenly, she placed her hand on my neck
our eyes met through the mirror

a deep sigh brushed against my hair
sweet and warm

now, I throw my body into this paralyzing silence
my heartbeat layered with another
pure, gentle destruction
if you’re with me, I want everything
endings and beginnings don’t matter

I know you see through me
but I pretend to be strong
please forgive me
it’s probably all just bad

the truth is, I can’t choose what’s precious
I can’t choose
(so I don’t need it all!)

since the moment I met you, the world started to smile brightly
it was everything to me
but still, I can’t give birth to it
how long can I keep breathing?

the breath I exhaled was circling back, pretending to be trapped
she stops it for me
as your downcast finger pulls me in
I’m sorry for not being able to say goodbye

into the white darkness
so that colors can burst forth brightly