ENNI

I'm not afraid of death
I'm afraid of not living
I want to make the most of time
While I'm still here
I don't want to just exist
Thinking about surviving
Anxiety kills me slowly
And it doesn't let me sleep
I don't want to regret
What I didn't do
Tomorrow I'm leaving
To not come back
I know it's difficult
And how to know
If tomorrow I'll be able to see the sunrise?
I don't want to think
About what happened

I want to put my finger back on the line
I must learn to say no
And reignite the fire that went out
A week ago everything was fine
I think I have a talent for falling
I'm tired of losing so much
A tree needs rain to grow
I go to places I don't want to go
And I say things I never felt
I can't remember the last time I could sleep
Or when a true friend was there for me
My favorite person said I changed
And the new me doesn't suit them
But I have everything I dreamed of
At least I can say I made it
I want to walk in another direction
For the first time, listen to my heart
I'm bored of this feeling
I want to make the final decision

Tonight nothing matters
I want to pretend this is the last time
Tonight nothing matters
Because maybe this is the last time

What used to amuse me
Became boring
The only thing that fulfilled me
Left me empty
Money didn't bring me happiness
But this path I chose to take
What used to amuse me
Became boring
The only thing that fulfilled me
Left me empty
Being acclaimed by the public is useless
I know tomorrow everyone will forget me
I'm wasting time on something I don't care about
Spending on expensive dinners, parties, alcohol, and lots of clothes
It hasn't fulfilled me at all
I lose the desire
I just want to be rich to help my mom

I don't even rest in my own bed
At this rate, what will become of me?
You were always in my life before
Now I only see you on Instagram
What good was it to experience everything?
If I can't tell you about it anymore
And this emptiness is growing
I don't know how to fill it anymore

I want to walk in another direction
For the first time
Listen to my heart
I'm tired of this feeling
I want to make the final decision

Tonight nothing matters
I want to pretend this is the last time
Tonight nothing matters
Because maybe this is the last time

Tonight nothing matters
I want to pretend this is the last time
Tonight nothing matters
Because maybe this is the last time