21 de Septiembre

Your transparent gaze piercing through us
So absent and so far away
Shining with sadness and insecurity
Radiant with fear and loneliness
Doubting who’s in your skin

There you are
Caught in this damn curse
That snuffed out the light of your being
That wiped out your memories that will never come back
And life ambushes you again
In September once more
Searching without knowing it, for springs, healing, and peace

Your memory has no time or place anymore
It’s your gestures and your marks
It vanished and can’t even scent
Your 21 grams of soul
That are still somewhere

And to think
That a few years back
You said with conviction
That forgetting was a form of revenge and forgiveness
That forgetting is freedom
And affirming that contradiction
You slipped away so slowly that you never said goodbye

And even though I know that my name
You won’t say anymore
It doesn’t hurt to hear you tell
About your first kiss
And in the middle of that war
Of rage and confusion
You’re losing yourself
You’re losing yourself

There you are
Caught in this damn curse
That snuffed out the light of your being
That wiped out your memories that will never come back
And life ambushes you again
In September once more
Searching without knowing it, for springs, healing, and peace
And a few years back
You said with conviction
That forgetting was a form of revenge and forgiveness
That forgetting is freedom
And affirming that contradiction
You slipped away so slowly that you never said goodbye
Another September 21st comes to an end
Goodbye