Fuego Fatuo

I have grown up with fear on my back
I, who swore to give everything until I had nothing left
I'm thinking about not thinking but I fall again
And the time that goes by, will never come back

My mind is strong, so much that it controls me
It wakes me up late at night, always at the same time
I tell it to shut up but it ignores me
And I don't like being here alone

With this crazy mind, asking me to jump
To get out of the way, that life is its prison
That nobody cares about me, that nothing is like before
Insignificant shit against giant problems

And so I live condemned, to die to shut you up
And so I live condemned, to write to endure you

It speaks to me with emotions, words don't help me
I had balls, and I can't stop sinking
I hit rock bottom, damn it, but I stay strong
I have a lot of shit to let out before I go

I know I'm not the same, something changed me
Only those you love can hurt you
I made a mistake giving my heart
Now I walk alone while I bleed

Music eases this pain a little
For a while, I'll let my mind go blank
I know few will listen to this song
But those few made me into something

I'm screwed up, I want to see you and have you bring me back
To the arms of death that still remember me
You want me to be strong but what the hell
I never liked people, let me go back

I no longer sound like always, I've gone outside
I'm letting the rain wash away my sorrows
But it's useless if the heart barely writes
And everything I live is one day to be forgotten

And so I live condemned, to die to shut you up
And so I live condemned, to write to endure you

It speaks to me with emotions, words don't help me
I had balls, and I can't stop sinking
I hit rock bottom, damn it, but I stay strong
I have a lot of shit to let out before I go