Robot

I'm a heartless robot
Can't feel anymore, I'm empty
Like a conspiracy against reason
I seek to love
You hug me and I
Want to give you my warmth
But I'm cold
I have no love to offer
Or to give

Yet despite that, you're here
Snuggled and firm on me
You don't hear my heartbeats
But you insist on trying
There's nothing that can give me back
What I lost in the past
It would be poisoning myself again and for pleasure

Maybe the key to open my heart
Is to lose you forever, my love
Perhaps that pain is a redeeming fire
And I finally reach your warmth

How to give what I don't have?
What people call 'impossible'
I want to reduce it to nothing
No fairies to guide me or help me with their beautiful magic
And to the beat of this apathetic system it infects me
My heart is a rock and even when the waves crash
It doesn't break to give you a piece of it
Nor does seeing your tears provoke a bad taste in my mouth
But it probably tastes like bile

Yet despite that, you're here
Snuggled and firm on me
You don't hear my heartbeats
But you insist on trying
You keep looking for a solution
Filling yourself with fear and disappointment
Because you know that your love
Your love, won't wake me up

Maybe the key to open my heart
Is to lose you forever, my love
Perhaps that pain is a redeeming fire
And I finally reach your warmth

And you finally disappeared
That made me feel sad
I don't know where you went
And now that you're not here
I feel a million things
I remember you so beautiful
I can't forget you

I wish you could see me, my love
I'm crying sadly in pain
I'm no longer that robot, my heart woke up
But now I no longer have your warmth