Je Suis Malade

I don’t dream anymore, I don’t smoke anymore
I don’t even have a story
I’m dirty without you, I’m ugly without you
I’m like an orphan in a dorm

I don’t want to live my life anymore
My life stops when you leave
I have no life and even my bed
Turns into a train station
When you go away

I’m sick, completely sick
Like when my mom would go out at night
And leave me alone with my despair

I’m sick, perfectly sick
You show up, we never know when
You leave, we never know where
And it’s been almost two years
That you don’t care

Like a rock, like a sin
I’m hooked on you
I’m tired, I’m exhausted
Pretending to be happy when they’re around

I drink every night, but all the whiskeys
Taste the same to me
And all the boats fly your flag
I don’t know where to go, you’re everywhere

I’m sick, completely sick
I bleed my heart into your body
And I’m like a dead bird when you sleep

I’m sick, perfectly sick
You’ve taken away all my songs
You’ve drained me of all my words
Yet I had talent, before your skin

This love is killing me, if it keeps up
I’ll die alone with myself
Next to my radio, like a dumb kid
Listening to my own voice singing

I’m sick, completely sick
Like when my mom would go out at night
And leave me alone with my despair

I’m sick, that’s right, I’m sick
You’ve taken away all my songs
You’ve drained me of all my words
And my heart is completely sick
Surrounded by barricades. You hear? I’m sick