Amnésie

Death is near her future
The angels of hell escort her
The hashtag #Life may hold something of her
From her neck hanging on the rope
Too young to understand the impact of words
I don't care what she wants as long as I have what I need
13 years old my first time
Since then my heart has closed the door
As strange as it may seem
After sleeping with her I wanted her to disappear
She wanted us to love each other but I didn't want to
I was the last to make the first move
The years go by and the task gets heavier
I didn't find her good and I wanted her to know
In meanness I felt so good
I was far from imagining her daily life
Tears dried on the poems she wrote me while seeking clitoral pleasure
I was a hypocrite like a 'Go OM' chanted by a Parisian supporter
The day of her suicide I couldn't believe it
The day before she wanted me to hold her in my arms
But I'm not good as soon as we move away from the sheets
I'm more into 'suck me and focus'
Last message she talks to the answering machine
'Hello Damso I'm going to make my time ring'
I didn't pick up I didn't want to make a mistake
What I was afraid of was that she would annoy me
It was the last time I heard her cry
She was dead and yet I told her 'See you later'

Since then I smoke to forget her
I smoke to forget that I killed her
Since then I smoke to forget her
I smoke to forget that I killed her
Since then I smoke to forget her
I smoke to forget that I killed her
Since then I smoke to forget

23 years old today, 10 years ago already
That I pray for amnesia to take me
I assume my actions by smoking nuts
Maybe her future will forgive me
The day of the funeral I didn't give a damn
Strangely it's like I didn't feel the blows
At the same time I wasn't there to see her body
I was rapping while the teacher was teaching
Young delinquent very badly raised
Handcuffs full time, wrists injured
Field n*****s, shit in the toilet
The cashier told me before cashing
Angry I punched him in the chin
I took what he said at face value
First robbery without really meaning to
This son of a bitch had no cash
I lock myself in soft drugs
A bit of whiskey in the juice
I forget this life I took away
Her flat ass that I made fun of
Frosted glass bulb
My complexion looks tired
I remember this life I took away
Her 86B that I groped
I don't build myself in the eyes of others anymore
I'm neither theirs, nor yours, nor ours
Earthy ass far from the beautiful buildings
Hideous remorse, dark punishment
It was the last time I felt her pulse
She was dead and yet I told her 'I love you'

Since then I smoke to forget her
I smoke to forget that I killed her
Since then I smoke to forget her
I smoke to forget that I killed her
Since then I smoke to forget her
I smoke to forget that I killed her
Since then I smoke to forget her
I smoke to forget that I killed her