El Monstruo Del Armario

Believe me if I say that it hurts to look in the mirror and not recognise yourself
Believe me if I say it hurts to look at it from afar, and see how everything goes wrong
Believe me if I say that it hurts to leave your skin, your skin, and feel that something dies
Believe me if I tremble, believe me if I shut up, let it fall and cream my failures

Let out the rage that I have kept since I was a child
Let me cry and break my inner world into pieces looking for affection
Look for a memory lost in the mind of the one who does not remember having lived it
And you will only find a half-broken clock from so much going back to see the oblivion

Tell my four walls that I'm no longer afraid of the closet monster
That it is enough for me to advance four steps to contemplate another monster every day
Tell my four walls that they are not as big as they expected
Outside, you find yourself with a lot of problems
What do you see how they start, and not how they end

Tell your sleeping chest to give it courage, and that it can stronger
That sometimes you can be killed by a sigh instead of death
I don't know how many times I said it, and I don't know how many times I have left
I don't know how many times I pretended to be a being that for being what he is, never threw everything out

Do you feel that time stands still and you hear yourself thinking? You've got it
You are in dialogue with your other half that you would never want to have met
I know it seems incredible that at this moment, silence is torturing you
And it may be the punishment we deserve for not knowing how to appreciate it

Don't ask me, I don't understand. Now I'm the asshole who prays
I'm the illusion who looks up to the sky thinking that maybe feats will happen
I'm looking for the perfect excuse to smile when I'm surrounded by people
And I don't have the courage to assume the truth instead of judging and denying the obvious

Get inside, I'll open the door for you, it's my head, forgive the mess
You make yourself comfortable while you see how I can't find something that comforts
Sit down and have a drink, that while I will lose the north
Knowing that seeing life go by, I found my place, but never a support

Javi be strong, Dante is not here today. Today you are against all your buts
You know that you have always been able to escape against all odds, (by the hair)
Remember that one day you swore that one day you would be indelible for the whole world
And the passage of time has helped you to see that the little indelible that exists is fear

Fear of falling, fear of losing, fear of advancing to retreat
Fear of feeling brave, acting hot, and screwing it up again
Fear of forgetting how to take care of yourself, of no longer feeling, of seeing you and leaving you
Get off the train you managed to catch, for thinking that that train wasn't going anywhere
And I know it's fun to see me pouring out, I feel this fear
And you'll keep laughing watching me

Making me feel that my escape always moves away, and you keep fucking me
Making my life impossible, doing my best to hurt me
Getting him to throw the smooth effort of twenty-four years into the void

I know that this is not life and that life is going away
If I keep waiting for something that won't come
If I stay still, it will be impossible to move forward
I know you have to loosen the rope behind me

I know you have to live and this is the life they give you
If you waste this one, you won't have any more
Never be afraid and if you don't know where you are
You just run and never look back

Let out the rage that I have kept since I was a child
Tell my four walls that I'm no longer afraid of the monster in the closet
Do you feel that time stands still and you hear yourself thinking?
You've got it
Tell your sleeping breast to give it courage and that it can more

Tell my four walls that they are not as big as they expected
I don't have the courage to assume the truth instead of judging and denying the obvious
Tell the monster in the closet that I'm tired of listening to his shit
That I'm already clear about who my enemy is and I'm also clear that I know how to stop