Por Si Me Faltas

I never found anyone who loved me with all
Who found in me a reason to pull me out of the mud
Who endured my flaws like I never did
Who covered my million scars with a thousand kisses

Who said forever, and time flew by
Who said for everything, and walked by my side
Who was always firm, and always stayed by my side
And no matter what happened, was the sun on cloudy days

I am not perfect, and I know I never will be
And I will never have all the things I once dreamed of
Because I always dreamed of having it all and being fine
But you stay with me, and to hell with the rest

Learning to enjoy the silence when you were near
I discovered that my fires were fueled by your absence
That your voice was a typhoon that carried away my storm
And your words the oasis where you drowned my unconsciousness

And the patience you had, was more than admirable
If you had to endure from me what was unbearable
If you embraced my demons when I stole your breath
And kissed my problems when no one else did

You failed me and you stayed, I hurt you and you broke
I kept quiet and you looked at me, you looked at me and admired me
And I never understood anything, how the hell did you forgive?
Every mistake I made with just one look?

I apologized a thousand times for the times I failed
And you forgave a thousand and one without asking for anything in return
You healed my wounds every time I stumbled
And applauded my victories with my blood in your hands

You were always there, supporting my back
Showing every day that you are the one who backs me up
That you are the one who knows me, that you are the one who guides me
That you are the one who loves me like no one else would

Today I'm going to ask the sky to listen to what I ask
To give you strength and courage, so you stay with me
Not to ever stop being the damn air I breathe
And may my two children carry your last name

I want to be a suitcase to hold your luggage
And take you to the end of the world in each of my verses
I want to be the talisman in every step of your journey
To always take care of you, and carry your weight

I want to be the fresh air that blows in your Bora Bora
And for you to be my sky and earth, my time and my hours
I want to be that light that illuminates you when you're alone
And remind you that you're still beautiful even when you cry

But now, forget everything, listen carefully
You've been an anchor in the depths of my mind for a while
Every inch you rise hurts more than not having me
And every step you take away brings me closer to losing myself

So don't leave me, because I can't without you
Because I know that if you leave, my life will be icy
How can I imagine anything without touching your fingers
If you've been the person who made me touch the sky

Being alive, that's why I write with an open chest
That's why I bleed if I think about it
That's why I hurt myself imagining losing you, and when I try
To do things as I should, I drown in my suffering

And I'm sorry, I really am sorry if I failed
I'm sorry if by doing it my way I messed up
I'm sorry if at some bad moment I hurt you
And if I'm not what you deserve, I promise I will be

I swear, for you I would give everything, even if it breaks me
I would give my vocation, and rightfully so, I would even give my soul
I've torn out my heart, but I've written you a letter
And I've kept it in your drawer, in case one day I miss you