Viene y Va

One day I asked you to stay by my side
And you replied that together until the end
You knew well that it would be complicated
But it was much harder because you didn't know how to be

You know how it hurts not to feel you when I want
You know that there's no one else to take your place
You know the nights I missed you
Why didn't I understand your game of seeing each other without talking

And what does it matter, if it's almost always like this
If not hearing from you has become routine
You appear and leave at your whim
And I look at you sideways not knowing what to say

I try to act like I don't care anymore
Like I've overcome it, like I won't be upset
But in truth, I don't know who I'm trying to fool
If I always need your support to not fail

I want to be the one who accompanies you every moment
To see how you grow
But I know that suddenly you'll want to push me away
And I promise to take care of you like I never did before

And I'll be back to be what we didn't say
I won't make you leave my path
It's clear to me that without you it would be different
And I know that if you leave, I'll be alone and extinct

You gave me strength when you whispered in my ear
And it was your advice that I now follow
And even if you won't understand what I'm saying in life
I can't be if you don't want to be with me

And you leave again
And again, another night
You look into my eyes, just before saying goodbye
And you coldly tell me that maybe you'll come back

Where are you? Because without you I feel alone
Where are you? Because I feel like I'm losing everything
Where are you? Because I promise to go look for you
Wherever you go, even if I don't know how

I swear I break when I feel your absence
But it hurts twice as much to know that you don't care
And here I am, alone, writing until late
Remembering the many times you let me down

And today I feel like a slave to your verse and your poetry
To your melody and the way you walk
I who always said I could manage on my own
And if it's not you who inspires me, it's emotional dependence

You don't want all my regret
You want more, and that's why you're so real
I already know well that you're just a feeling
But I lie if I say you're not essential

I've spent half my life getting used to your absence
And thanking you for being the one who didn't fail me
There's nothing more bipolar than feeling your presence
Because thanks to your essence, I haven't stopped being myself

And I don't regret the times I was in my room
Scared and wearing myself out over some text, and no
There's no Javi if it's not Dante who gives him strength and passion
And there's no union that resists if there's no inspiration

So inspire me, and don't be the one who forgets me
If it turns, look at me; you know I put my faith in you
Because you were the signature that gave life to my gift
Inspiration, don't fail me, because without you, I am nothing