A Ella

I loved her, she was my life
I saw through her eyes
My most beautiful songs
She inspired them all

She, the one I loved so much
To whom I gave my good name
The one I drew with kisses
She got into my bed with another man

She broke my heart
She ruins my life
Burning her photos did nothing for me
I haven't been able to tear her from my life
Oh my God, I wanted to hate her and see her dead
I felt disgusted by her body and her scent
I still love her and I can't forgive her
That's why I drink and cry my torment

Today I find myself dead while alive
With blood and liquor in my veins
Drunk, I wander from side to side
Until death helps me forget her

She, the one I loved so much
To whom I gave my good name
The one I drew with kisses
She got into my bed with another man