El Infierno

How do I feel?
If you left me speechless
Your eyes reflect the pain you caused me
But still, you look like a goddess

I can't heal
When I kiss you, I feel like I'm poisoning myself
The storm won't pass, and I'm still in it
The clumsiness of someone who insists on loving you

And this hurts me
More than I thought it would over time
The pages are stained with my tears
They dried with the touch of a tissue

And even though I miss you
Nothing changes because I've already missed that flight
Because I've already missed that flight

I'm not the devil
Nor a criminal, but I live in hell
I've seen drugs, guns, and shootouts up close
And a couple of fools, in another life, I'll see them

I'm not a saint either
I have more sins than years, and that's true
I've seen people turn into monsters for the dope
It's a bitch, and watch out for trying her kisses

The need arises to taste
Life has been put on a price tag
But don't they ever learn?
They want to finish assignments, not school

And I didn't stay behind
I made mistakes that I don't regret
The pain is unusual
My soul keeps going, and that's why I don't lend it out.