El Infierno

How do I feel?
If you left me with the word in my mouth
Your eyes reflect the bad things you did to me
But you still see yourself as a goddess

I can't heal myself
When I kiss you I feel like I'm going to poison myself
The storm is not going away and I am still in it
The clumsiness of someone who insists on loving you

And this hurts me
More than I thought with the passage of time
The pages are stained with my tears
They dried with the touch of a handkerchief

And even though I miss you
Nothing changes because I already missed that flight
Because I already missed that flight

I am not the devil
I'm not a criminal, but I live in hell
I saw drugs, guns and shootings up close
And a couple of ñeris in another life I will see them

I'm not a saint either
I have more sins than years and that is true
I saw people turn into monsters because of drugs
She's a whore and she's careful not to try her kisses

The need arises
For accepting life they put a price on it
But they don't learn more
They want to finish assignments, not school

And I did not stay behind
I made mistakes that I don't regret
The pain is unusual
My soul continues and that is why I do not lend it