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For that day when this stops hurting, I want you to know well
That I gave you everything I had and what I didn't have, I made up
For the moment when the regrets end with time
You'll know that we were what we gave, and my love left in more than one attempt

Maybe when you mature and realize it wasn't one thing that broke me
And that to heal you, I gave even my life and my soul died
And that today I get sick to cure you and opened all my wounds
That I carry the sorrows that don't weigh on you and now feel like mine

Maybe
Someday you might understand

That, even if I stop trying
I never stopped missing you
Although for you I discovered my anxiety, it's impossible to let you go
And if I deserve to cry
Maybe it's for giving you
The only part of me that could heal me, I gave it to you for loving you

And I sleep to not think of you and you appear in my dreams
And at three in the morning, you are free and I from them
Anxiety won over me and now controls my mind
In therapy they tell me it's different, and no

No matter how hard I try, my voice breaks
I didn't want children and you want two
And I look at the sky and always ask God
Why is this happening to me?

That, even if I stop trying
I never stopped missing you
Although for you I discovered my anxiety, it's impossible to let you go
And if I deserve to cry
Maybe it's for giving you
The only part of me that could heal me, I gave it to you for loving you

Everything comes down to this absurd way of believing that you're still here
Even my family questions me because I couldn't continue and you moved on without me
I even went viral with the loyalty that I believed was foolish to dedicate to you
Only in heaven they know well what I suffered

You know it too
But according to you, I was pretending

Because I stopped trying
After you left me
I even lost my peace, you in the meantime try to let go
You think I deserve to cry
Just because you cried
I'll always keep the best of you, but today I need to heal

Goodbye