Sustancias

I live lost in nights of wandering mixing substances
Smoking endless hours to calm the cravings
They confuse
My truth with arrogance
I don't know if I hit rock bottom, I don't know the distance
You're a siren but from an ambulance

Sometimes
I tend to miss my childhood
In my mind, I keep plenty of problems
& in my room, I eagerly await death
I'm a body consumed by anxiety
At night I have
Difficulty sleeping
That's why I can't go on and somehow try to escape reality

From mistakes we learn
But it surprises me
How many mistakes I've made without any reason
In a sad world where the rainbow is lost
I live in heaven but I'm just a tourist
I seek happiness without being materialistic
Your God is love but you are selfish

I seek love but I don't know if it really exists
I get lost in substances
I find myself in substances
I don't know if I touched the sky, I don't even know if I remember
I know perfectly well that I'm not perfect
Certainly, I lack affection

From bad decisions, I now see the effects
& loneliness highlights all my flaws
I always live looking for excuses
To remedy my loss of contexts
While the fatalities of my life each one
I write them in texts

The nights have become cold as ice
I walk adorned with flowers before my burial
Give me some time and I'll buy you the sky
& if I don't buy it, I invite you to my hell
I have thousands of reasons to be better
But memories make me make the same mistake
Life is not so simple and on this side of the planet the Sun hardly shines

No, no (hardly shines)
I find myself in substances
I don't even know if I remember
I live lost in nights of wandering mixing substances
Smoking endless hours to calm the cravings

They confuse
My truth with arrogance, I don't know if I hit rock bottom, I don't know the distance
Makumba is on the beat
This is deep
I live in heaven but I'm just a tourist
Your God is love but you are selfish