Baseado Em Fatos Reais

Memories that I carry in my mind
Of the life I had full of pain and sorrow
Many bad things, very few were good
Drugs, violence, crime, suffering for my old lady
I didn't think about anything, partied all night
At 18 years old, the first mistake
I had a kid with the girl who wasn't steady
Dumb and virgin boy, fooled by beauty
I ask God how all this could happen to me
(But where did all this start?)
It's where everything can happen
(And where did you meet this girl?)
The girl was at the hangout
Don't pay to see

To be more specific and clear
It was a place called Samba do Capão
Just 2 minutes of conversation and the fate of that girl: my Opal
I should have noticed when she was shy to hold my hand
I should have seen the value of that girl when she enjoyed Tigrão's music
Bro, my despair was unleashed
When I found out that girl had gotten pregnant by me
The news turned my life upside down
But, for my stupidities, I kinda deserved it

With calmness and incompetence, that girl knew what she wanted
Told me to snort with money, 'cause tomorrow would be a new day
Without thinking, I snorted, but didn't know
I swear to God in heaven, my dream was to have that girl as my daughter
(What? But you didn't have the girl?)
But she knew what she wanted, man
(What do you mean she knew what she wanted, bro?)
(What happened, man? Hold on, hold on, brother)
She got rid of my daughter
(Damn, man, no!) She got rid of my daughter

When I heard the news, I just wanted to die
Lost parents, relatives, you had to see it to believe it
Abandoned, I saw scenes of my life passing by
And I desperately dreamed of that little girl calling me

Daddy, you didn't know
But I had my dreams, dreamed of growing up by your side
Met an angel called mommy
But the world's evil was stronger
She was stronger, daddy

To recover, it was tough, got a job, went to school
Left fashion behind, started playing soccer
Really quit drugs
Decided to continue my life
Left behind the guys from the criminal life
Discovered that from that moment on
Life had to be my motto
But, little did I know that the bad was still to come
I felt strange, everything I ate made me sick
Medicines, superstitions, churches, none of that helped
That's when a medical test result showed
Bro, they had to do 3, 4, 5 for me to read, see, and believe
That in my blood, in my life, the HIV virus was spreading
Thought those things only happened to others
Then I stopped and thought: What was the point of my effort?

Desperation made me go after that girl
(Man, you didn't do that)
Desperation made me become just another murderer
(Man, you didn't kill the girl, did you?)
Same place, seemed like that first scene
And that day she came to me thinking I wanted some scheme
But no, no Opal, gun in hand, heartache
Desperation, panic, tears, the sequence
Blood on the floor, several shots, smell of gunpowder and a blown brain
Maybe the best moment of my life, that moment, I felt avenged

Police arrived a few minutes later, I don't even remember my reaction
I remember the gavel hitting, boom, 6 years of detention
Carandiru, many stories, many partners, many accounts
Frontline, idea, padlock
Deals with the staff inside were common
3 years of suffering, suited up for my parole
Thank God I managed to return to the harmony of my home

What home! Today, in the hospital room, in the terminal phase
Maybe, thief, that's why I'm feeling bad
At 23 years old, far from my family's affection
Imagining far away the face of that girl, my daughter
Thinking straight about the solid brother I could have been
Missing my mom who could be here by my side
Remembering my brothers who grew up by my side
Sad for people who complain about life, without ever going through it

But I pray for the soul of that girl
I know she wasn't steady
I pray for the guys who get fooled
And trade life just for a beer
I ask the Father for their story to be different from mine
I ask the Father for that guy and that girl to use a condom
Bro, value life, I know the high is tempting
Don't pick girls carefully, my time is coming
Many are losing their way
Jesus is coming back, the world is ending
And time is running out

End of a life without glory
Bro, take me in memory, I'm out
Mind and soul away from evil
In the hospital room, in the terminal phase
Maybe that's why I'm feeling bad
Maybe that's why, man, I'm feeling bad

(Hey, man, you're with me in my heart, man
Take you in memory, I'll be with you till the end, man
You can count on me through thick and thin)

But what makes me sadder
Is not knowing that I'll die today or tomorrow
What makes me sadder is knowing this story isn't just mine
The kids should know that the rose is beautiful
But it brings a thorn and that thorn brings a lot of evil
What makes me even sadder
Is knowing that desperation makes many mothers
Set aside a beautiful thing that God left on Earth
Called a child
Take me in memory, because my future is death
My future is death