vanitas

You'll understand it then
Awareness is there
But it's a kind of unawareness
Wandering, unable to grasp
The bleak emotions, so hollow

Shutting my eyes to my own heat
Spreading poison, making a mess
What does it mean to be human? I can't even tell
Continuing to deceive and betray, all beyond awareness

Oh, heavy days of sin
Rusty echoes linger

If I can just break open
Even that cheerful door
I’ll wake from this dream
Tearing apart the rotten, decaying mess

I want to wash away
Your shattered self into pieces

It feels like a dump down there
A place hard to save
The mistakes of the days can't be undone, a terrifying past
Sleep now
Into the abyss.