Kamui

Devouring my sorrow
A captive of my own awareness
Dreams alone will wither away

Living with vacant eyes
That’s the reality
Another day that feels the same
Into the night

I can’t tell anyone
Throwing myself into the wounds

A life I’ve never entrusted
Hanging on to the old
What I hear is
The chair of mercilessness

Living with vacant eyes
What’s there is
A poem that never changes
Let’s sing

How many more years?
Am I still alive?
The applause of a confession gone mad

Sometimes mimicking tears and smiles
It’s a life picking up discarded love

With a collar and a bell
I walk again today
Stepping on bug hair
I’m the same

Wailing
Struggling
Screaming
Joyful
Love, thrown at me
Life
So light
Life
It’s a lie
Let’s play the song of life
Unavoidable
It hurts again today
Thrown into the wounds
It’s a lie
I can’t believe it
I’m human too

I can’t tell anyone
Throwing myself into the wounds

Wailing
Struggling
Screaming
Joyful
Love, thrown at me
Life
So light
Life
It’s a lie
Let’s play the song of love
Unavoidable
It hurts again today
Thrown into the wounds
It’s a lie
I can’t believe it
I’m human too

The bloody sky
Is probably the only salvation
Closer to the way of living
More human than now
Absolute

How many more years?
Am I still alive?
The applause of a confession gone mad

Sometimes mimicking tears and smiles
It’s a life picking up discarded love

Sometimes the warmth and
The scent of a peaceful death.