Heroina

And were you the one who said you loved me so much?
I no longer know what reality or irony is
I start looking for gold, end up looking for life
Girl, you don't realize you were my two heroines

Mom, I swear I'll fill your pantry
And I think about not letting you go the day you leave
So many ashes in me that the lighter doesn't ignite
I like crazy girls, I'm tired of the strings

Writing this at four in the morning
Every day my demons talk to me more
And how not to talk to them if I feel lonely here
She was just a goddess and you were my pantheon

I'm not going to kneel down one more time
I don't want you to think I miss you
You don't even deserve me to stop time
I wish I could go back and fix everything I left behind

And that wouldn't benefit you at all
Because I wouldn't make the mistakes of the past
Having had a relationship that pleased me
Just to end up screwing up everything

You were bad for the harm you did to me
You partying and me waiting to see you on the weekend
You cheated on me for three months
And you asking me, do you believe in us?

I don't believe a damn thing since then
Thanks for opening my eyes
You took off a blindfold I thought was iron
But the blindfold was your red string thong

How many times have I cried my I love yous to you?
How many times have I sung my I'm sorrys to you?
How many times have I said I miss you?
It only has one name and it's true love

We have never valued what we have
And it reaches a point where we both lose
We crossed the line ignoring the points
I gave you that hug without knowing it would be the last

I'm locked at home by obligation
And I have no choice but to write you a song
I've already written a thousand more crying in my room
And for having cried, I closed another drawer

A drawer that goes with your claps
Sing to me lying down, all wrapped up in my bed
Your melodic voice brightened my mornings
Sing to me slowly, let the desire remain

Let the desire remain