Vivo Soñando

El Paisa's song "Vivo Soñando" is a poignant and heartfelt tribute to his late mother. The lyrics are steeped in longing and sorrow, capturing the essence of a son who is grappling with the immense pain of losing his mother. The recurring line, "Yo vivo soñando que regresaras y volverás y no te iras," translates to "I live dreaming that you will return and come back and not leave," which underscores the deep yearning and hope that she might somehow come back to him, even if only in dreams.

The song delves into the emotional turmoil that El Paisa experiences, using vivid imagery and metaphors to convey his grief. He describes his attempts to numb the pain with substances like pills, cigarettes, and alcohol, yet these only provide temporary relief. The line, "Mi amor no perdió el color aún con este rencor y amargo sabor," meaning "My love did not lose its color even with this bitterness and rancor," highlights the enduring nature of his love despite the bitterness of his loss. The song also touches on the isolation and loneliness he feels, as he mentions how cold and empty his nights are without her.

El Paisa's lyrics also reflect a sense of regret and self-blame, as he questions whether he deserved the pain of their separation. The song's emotional climax reveals that his mother's death on December 6, 2000, is the source of his anguish. He expresses a deep sense of gratitude and love for her, acknowledging that he cannot simply love her because he loves her too deeply. The song concludes with a powerful message of finding solace in music, specifically rap, as a means of coping with his pain. This tribute to his mother is not only a personal catharsis but also a universal message to all mothers and those who have lost them.