Hier Encore

Yesterday again
I was twenty years old
I caressed time
And played with life
Like one plays with love
And I lived the night
Without counting on my days
That fled in time

I made so many plans
That remained up in the air
I founded so many hopes
That flew away
That I remain lost
Not knowing where to go
Eyes searching the sky
But the heart buried

Yesterday again
I was twenty years old
I wasted time
Thinking I could stop it
And to hold onto it
Even to anticipate it
I only ran
And got out of breath

Ignoring the past
Conjugating to the future
I preceded myself
In every conversation
And gave my opinion
Thinking it was right
To criticize the world
With nonchalance

Yesterday again
I was twenty years old
But I wasted my time
Doing crazy things
That ultimately leave me
With nothing really specific
Just a few wrinkles on my forehead
And the fear of boredom

Because my loves died
Before even existing
My friends have left
And won't come back
Because of me, I created
Emptiness around me
And I wasted my life
And my young years

Of the best and the worst
By throwing away the best
I froze my smiles
And I numbed my tears
Where are they now
Now, my twenty years?