Malevaje

Tell me, for God's sake, what have you given me,
that I've changed so much,
I don't know who I am anymore?
The rogue stranger,
looks at me without understanding...
He sees me losing the image
of the tough guy that yesterday
shone in action...
Don't you see that I'm trapped,
defeated and tied up
in your heart?

I saw you swaggering proudly
with such a deep and sensual rhythm
that just seeing you made me lose
faith, courage,
the desire to show off.
You haven't even left me a cigarette behind
from that tough and fierce past...
Now all I need to complete
is to go to church and kneel down to pray!

Yesterday, afraid to kill,
instead of fighting
I started to run...
I saw myself in the shadows or dead;
I thought of not seeing you and trembled...
If I, -who never backed down-
at night, anxious,
lock myself up to cry!...
Tell me, for God's sake, what have you given me,
that I've changed so much,
I don't know who I am anymore?