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I needed a change
Maybe slow it down
I cut my bangs by myself
I’m still the same person

I’m hurting myself
So much chaos in a year
Looking in the mirror and not recognizing myself
It’s so strange

I just can’t stop
I can’t let go
I wish I wouldn’t take everything so personally
They tell me to let go, but I only know how to hold on

Even if it sounds ridiculous
I’m going around in circles
I never close the cycles
Living in a spiral
Another chapter repeated
And I don’t even show up in the titles
I never close the cycles
Living in a spiral
Living in a spiral

It runs through my veins
Tints of resentment
I’m venting
Like never before

Without this pain
I think I wouldn’t have a roof
And today I only feel guilt

I cry every night
I want a hug, but don’t touch me
I know, they’ve told me, I’m manipulative
I want a message, but don’t talk to me

And even if it sounds ridiculous
I’m going around in circles
I never close the cycles
Living in a spiral
Another chapter repeated
And I don’t even show up in the titles
I never close the cycles
Living in a spiral
Living in a spiral

Life is calling, but I’m not answering
Mom says: Resist
Life is calling, but I’m not answering
I just want to be sad
Life is calling, but I’m not answering
Mom says: Resist
Life is calling, but I’m not answering
I just want to be sad