La grande farce

"Finally, I’m gonna be what you wanted
Here’s the day of days, a new humanity
They’ll finally know why they came here
And the cost of life and eternity

I’ll walk with my head held high, stand up straight
You can look at me, you’ll be proud of me
I’ll sing your name all along the way
To teach them how to live, to show them the divine

They can hit me and throw stones at me
They can laugh at me, at my twisted mouth
It’s true it hurts my back, the strap’s too tight
It’s true it hurts when they spit on me

But above all, don’t be afraid, trust in me
I know I’ll hold on because I have to hold on
And chase away the chaos so your order can come
So they finally know they need you

But it hurts, you know, it spins in my head
But they hit too hard, I can’t take it anymore
And they sing, they laugh, they think it’s a party
Because they don’t know, because they don’t know

I don’t know either and I don’t understand
But I don’t deny anything, I’ve accepted the role
But I didn’t know the cost of each step
Your plan is too big, too big for my shoulders

Let’s stop now and please tell them
Yes, tell them to let me go back home
Please don’t blame me, I tried, you know
The road is too long and the cross is too heavy

Oh, come on, I beg you, come so it all stops
And tell them now what they need to know
Tell them everything if you want, but now stop!
I’m gonna cry, I’m gonna scream, I’m scared of the dark

But tell them now, tell them that you are God
Tell them that you are good, generous, and powerful
Have mercy on me and look into my eyes
Two holes of eternity and tears of blood

But you don’t hear anything from your high throne
But I’m at their feet and I’m gonna curse you
Stop now! Stop, I can’t take it anymore!
I’m gonna shame you and piss myself

No, it’s not Judas who betrayed me the most
Even thirty pieces of silver, poverty is a bitch
Judas cried famine, Judas walked barefoot
But you, tell me, you’re for the holy farce!

I wish now, I wish a woman
Would finally make me scream, just like on the first day
And to hell with hell and to hell with my soul
But before I die, die from love too

You made me a son of God, a cross on my shoulder
And I wanted to live and have kids
And grow old next to a woman who’d sometimes say
"Do you remember, do you remember before?"

Finally, you’ve won, finally I resign
I’ll say the words, all the words you want
I’ll play the game, I’ll make the sign
So the fire can finally free me from the fire

I’ll talk about hope and mercy
Say there’s only you when we talk about love
Yes, but I beg you, let them pull the cord
And let them hit harder and hit heavier

I know it’s the end, that you won’t come
I’m still young and I’m already old
The word given, it’s true I believed in you
But you want to be feared and you don’t love me

Look at me, my father, I’ve done my duty
I followed you in everything, to the last torture
But I scream now, but I scream now
Be cursed, be cursed until the end of time!

Oh no, I swear, I didn’t say that
Oh no, I love you, I love you and I love only you
But I’m so scared, but I’m so scared and I’m so cold!"
Thus spoke Jesus on his way to the cross.