Sueños

I haven't seen you since our thing ended
I don't even know how you are, we haven't talked in a while
Everything I gave for you, for you, what did it mean?
I gave you all the love I had in my hands

And now, being honest with you
It's clear there's a hole in my heart
If you knew what I would give to see you again
Your eyes sparkled when I told you: I love you

And I'm fed up with all your nonsense
You told me you loved me to my face and you lied
I cried for you a couple of days and only ashes remain
From the flame you ignited when you entered my life

And my bad, there's no way out of these years of agony
I can't find my symphony even in moments of joy
And who would say that one day I would miss you
When I met you, you wouldn't even give me two kisses

Girl, don't make me explain what I feel
I don't believe in God or your damn commandments
I've always been an atheist, I only believe what I see
And if it's true that God exists, see you in hell

And I made a deal with the devil a long time ago
Sitting on the couch where I write to you and lament
I really feel that it's not that bad either
The 'buts' and my tears I suffer for being a fool

It's not that I'm over you
It's just that I'm not following your steps anymore, girl, I'm sorry
But what's the point of feeling? Everything ends up going with the wind
I knew you would destroy me, I was tired of hearing all your stories
Know that it's still hard for me to go to sleep
But because I know you'll be in my dreams

I was going to tell you how I feel, but I prefer to sing it
Because it's the only way I know how
I could sing to you what I feel so you can think about it
But I don't want you to suffer when you're smiling
I'm getting used to it

To look in the mirror and see my face without shadows
With fewer kilos, but more people in the choruses
The same money at home, but I'm missing the gigs

I don't need anyone, cousin, my music is mine
People want sad songs, but that make them smile
They're incoherent things, my innocent poems
That I repeated a thousand times until falling asleep

A life with you, my girl
A future decided by the flip of a coin
Wanting to touch you without kissing the bottle
Taking another sip of that bitch

You lost without me, me lost without you
I keep walking even if it's not easy
I'm still half broken, I feel like an idiot
You didn't realize how fragile I was

Thinking if you'll come back
Thinking if you also miss me
Dreaming of having you again
Tell me why you left if we were eternal

I'm not wrong anymore
When she looks at me, she doesn't have the sparkle she had in her eyes
I feel she has failed me
I'm not going to forgive again if I've been deceived

Now I just want you to disappear
And don't regret all the lies you've told
Take your things, I don't want them
I've left the memories along the way

Forget about this, I gave up
Girl, your poison finished me
You made me feel things I hadn't felt
And now I saw that it was my heart, that had rotted

I didn't know it was going to hurt so much
And that the wounds would hurt for so long
And I look at the stars and I'm listening to your audios
You don't know how much they're hurting me
Crying, I'm writing
I need to vent and let out everything I have inside

And inside is where you've stayed
Stuck, like a poisoned dart
And I'm sorry, I swear I'm sorry
I tell myself when I'm in front of me, looking in the mirror
But time doesn't pass
I swear I feel that something inside me is broken

They say if you don't suffer you don't know what love is
Meeting you, my girl, was the best thing in my life
Two aligned souls seeking freedom
I swear your kisses healed my wounds

I loved looking at you and smiling at you without reason
Loving you was so easy, you were always the most beautiful
I don't know how to accept that all that is behind us
Ours, that novel I would reread a thousand times

It's not that I'm over you
It's just that I'm not following your steps anymore, girl, I'm sorry
But what's the point of feeling? Everything ends up going with the wind
I knew you would destroy me, I was tired of hearing all your stories
Know that it's still hard for me to go to sleep
But because I know you'll be in my dreams